Saturday, March 31st, 2007
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5:51 pm - *rawr*
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Saturday, March 3rd, 2007
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8:46 pm - randomness
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haha currently searching for 占有 (zhan you) by 飞轮海 (Fahrenheit)
anyone heard of fahrenheit? you all should they're pretty nifty :D they have happyful songs like 超喜欢你 (chao xi huan ni) which translates into "i really like you" hahaha XD tis highly recommended by me! *nod* hehehe
ooh and if anyone happens to know where the song 占有 is from (like what album/OST aka sountrack) that would be awesome :)
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Monday, February 12th, 2007
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10:39 pm - MUSIC <3!!!
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w-inds is coming out with a new album.....gackt is coming out with a new single....and i want them allllllllll >< ahhhhh lol (see facebook for pretty pictures! XD)
current music: 橘慶太 - 声
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Saturday, February 3rd, 2007
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12:29 am - soundtrack of my life
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(stolen from tina! XD)
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie
Opening Credits:
Worthy, You Are Worthy - Chris Tomlin
Waking Up:
Holy One Alone - Mark White Band
First Day At School:
Gazelle City - the pillows
Falling In Love:
Startin' - 浜崎あゆみ(ayumi hamasaki)
Fight Song:
Stalker - the pillows
Breaking Up:
No. 3 In A Flat Major - Various Artists (some romantic piano song...)
Formal:
HAPPY ENDING (classical) - 浜崎あゆみ(ayumi hamasaki)
Life's Okay:
Dreams - Alysha (from Pokémon The Movie 2000 The Power Of One)
Mental Breakdown:
Loreta And Desireé's Bouquet - Part 1 - George Winston
Driving:
The Encounter - 久石譲 (from the original Princess Mononoke Soundtrack)
Flashback:
BYE MY LOVE～TinyVoice, Production REMIX～ - FLAME
Getting Back Together:
Color Me - w-inds. (haha how appropriate XD)
Wedding:
Music of the Night - PotO (uhhhh...)
Birth of a Child:
Idyll's End - Hans Zimmer (original score from the Last Samurai Soundtrack)
Final Battle:
Little Busters - the pillows
Death Scene:
III. Scherzo. Molto Vivace - Antonín Dvořák (from Symphony No. 9 in E minor: From the New World)
Funeral Song:
shadow's masquerade - Sagisu Shiro (BLEACH Original Soundtrack 2) ooh how fitting...
End Credits:
Fantasmic - Nightwish
haha it's funny how some things fit perfectly and others not at all
current mood:  contemplative
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12:25 am - i return with surveys!!!!
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i am back on lj because i realize that once in college, this will be the only way i can keep in touch with some of my friends
random stuff!
| ~Deep Questions That Make You Think~Mostly Original~81 Questions | | Random/Basic | | Name: | Xi Guo | | Nickname: | Xi Xi | | Best memory: | going on the alaskan cruise with my family the summer between my fifth and sixth grade | | Worst memory: | mother calling the cops on me... | | Best dream: | just hanging out with my friends in church with random hugging-ness (twas a warm fuzzy feeling =) ) | | Worst nightmare: | mother/monsters/other dark things trying to kill me | | Weaknesses: | short tempered, stubborn, a bit antisocial/not really good with or around people, procrastinator, | | Strengths: | loyal, honest, intelligent (somewhat), creative, leader, good listener/observer, faily calm | | Anyone have the same birthday as you?: | yes! (Heather Liu! XD) | | Would you... | | die for a friend?: | yes | | die for your crush/bf/gf?: | probably not | | die for your family?: | yes | | ever kill yourself?: | now: no, before: yes | | Kill someone else?: | no | | If you had to choose- save your cat or save your enemy?: | enemy | | rather freeze or burn to death?: | burn | | admit you love someone?: | probably not | | break the law or lie to save a friend?: | break human law yes. God's law no. lie no. | | Have you ever... | | cut yourself?: | sorta... | | been in love?: | don't think so | | thought about suicide?: | yup | | hated someone so much you thought you would really kill them?: | no | | starved yourself?: | no | | forced yourself to cry?: | probably | | forced yourself to throw up?: | no | | betrayed a friend?: | no | | hurt someone else so you would feel better about yourself?: | no | | Which is worse? | | your friend dying or your parent dying: | parent | | losing all your old memories or never being able to make new ones: | never being able to make new ones | | being rejected by someone you love or having your feelings returned only...: | feelings returned only to be dumped | | to be dumped a month later: | | | being raped or willingly having sex and later regretting it: | raped | | having no emotions or only being happy once every couple of months: | only being happy once every couple of months | | losing all your friends on earth or never having found God: | never having found God | | being dumped or dumping someone: | dumping someone | | falling in love with an anime character or falling in love with a celebrity: | anime character | | a friend moving away or losing touch with a friend who lives right near you: | losing touch w/ friend right near you | | Dreams | | What is your dream in life?: | myterious, dark, often nightmare-filled. (good dreams are few and far betwee) although lately there's been quite a bit of calc | | Do you have insomnia?: | majorly | | Do you often wake up in the middle of the night after a bad dream?: | sometimes | | Do you get deja vu?: | all the time | | Did you ever have a dream that came true?: | quite a few times | | What about a nightmare?: | not really... | | Did you ever have a realistic dream that truly scared you?: | yup | | Do you daydream?: | yup | | Have you ever dreamed you were falling?: | not really | | Fears | | Greatest fears: | God | | What are you not afraid of at all?: | death | | Name a weird phobia you have.: | throwing up | | Has your fear ever come true?: | my fear IS true | | Is your fear a common fear?: | dunno | | Any particular reason for the fear?: | well He is kinda all powerful... | | Does it ever control your life?: | well yea He should... =P | | Have you had nightmares about the fear?: | no | | Are you more afraid of rejection or failure?: | rejection | | The Past | | Most missed memory: | childhood and carefree times when i got along with my family | | How have your feelings changed throughout your life?: | many times | | First memory: | being potty-trained by my grandparents when i was still in China ( i was like one or almost two) | | Happiest childhood memory: | picking strawberries (and eating them at the same time) with my mother and grandmother in Connecticut | | Saddest childhood memory: | Uncle Monroe dying | | What was your first word?: | mama | | First friend?: | some random neighbor kid in Connecticut | | First crush?: | some guy on my bus in first grade | | First love?: | yet to occur | | What would you do if... | | your best friend died because of you?: | i'd do all i could for his/her family | | your true love moved out of the country?: | i would never have a "true love" | | your friend gave you the choice of cheating on the really tough math final?: | i wouldn't cheat | | a friend offered you drugs or alcohol?: | i'd refuse | | a friend of the same gender told you they were gay and asked you out?: | i'd still be her friend but refuse | | your bf/gf asked you to have sex with them?: | i'd refuse | | you were sexually abused?: | probably repress the memory somehow or avoid people in general/not let anyone touch me ever again | | you were betrayed by someone you trusted and cared about?: | i would never put so much trust in someone for that to happen | | you found out your friend wanted to die?: | i'd do my best to convince him/her otherwise | | Final Thoughts | | Are you saved?: | yes | | Do you believe in God?: | yes | | Why or why not?: | because He's the truth and the way and the life | | Are you depressed or sad all the time?: | kinda not really anymore | | What are you hoping for in the future?: | adventure | | What makes you happy?: | music | | What makes you sad?: | lots of things | | Do you believe in the Bible?: | yes | | Why or why not?: | because it's the truth | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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current mood: contemplative
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Monday, October 17th, 2005
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10:16 pm
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stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
angry
currently pulling a D in honors precalc
and its almost time for report cards
PSAT over
ACT coming up
the whole spirit of homecoming ticked me off last week
and i still am
string of curses flying across my mind
last home game this friday against north. we're the away team. wtf
competition saturday
last competition next saturday
life
can't escape it
this is stupid
no point in trying to talk anymore
i just wanna cry
like every frickin minute of the day
this is stupid
i hate emotions
and school
and pressures
and competition
and wits
and scores
and secrets
and things i musn't talk about
and high school couples
and having to pretend all the time
and trying to be indifferent
and failing miserably at every frickin thing i try to do
and physical problems that i can't identify because i don't even know if they're physical or psycological
and pain
i hate them all
hate hate hate hate hate
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
i fail
and i let everyone down
and i'm incredibly self-absorbed
i just
fail
all the time
and it doesn't even matter anymore
i'm just
weary....
the light mocks me
as does the warmth
that's fine
i don't mind the darkness
nor the loneliness
sometimes it's the best way to go
angry
at everything
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
how things are indeed
why must i be so pessimistic?
i think i have a mental illness
even my own frickin mother thinks it
i just wanna sleep and never wake up again
not feel anything of this world again
oh the stupidity of it all
i can't even begin to express
am at a loss for words
or feelings
blackness
and coldness
all the time
hate hate hate hate hate
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
no one cares
what does it matter
i don't think i'm updating anymore
ever again
have a nice life
BTW if anyone shows this entry to any of my parents i will personally make sure that you die a horribly long, painful and bloody death.
current mood:  depressed
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Monday, August 29th, 2005
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7:45 pm - good thing or bad thing?
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physics second hour second semester is full i probably won't be able to take physics this year :(
*sadness*
my mommy just made bubble tea :)
*happiness*
current mood:  busy
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Sunday, August 28th, 2005
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9:40 pm - *sigh*
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alright well i'm going to switch out of international issues and comm. tech. and go into accelerated physics because i really wanna takea AP next year. yea.....so pray that i won't die or have some sort of mental breakdown.
did i mention that i left my retainer at band camp? cause i did. and it kinda sucks.
all randomness aside, my mother forced me to write a schedual for every day of the week. and lemme tell ya it is filled with hmwk, SAT/ACT test preps, and Chinese. *roar* i'm not looking forward toward junior year at all.
current mood:  overwhelmed
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Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
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9:23 pm - scchooooolllll *gag*
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school tomorrow
just finishing chem XD
getting up at 8 AM seems waay too early
lol getting up at 6 every day from thursday on is going to thoroughly suck
summer=amazing
already looking forward to next year :)
my schedual:
sem 1=
1. honors precalc -shaw
2. web design -valice
3. principles of engineering -finn
4. spanish 3 -lopez (B lunch)
5. AP chem -convery (A lunch)
6. AP chem -convery
7. international issues -sievert
sem 2=
1. spanish 3 -cunnigham
2. communications technology -zaleski
3. american lit & lang-themes -campbell
4. symphony orchestra -banks (A lunch)
5. honors precalc -shaw (C lunch)
6. AP chem -convery
7. american lit minority voices -johnson
lemme know if you have any lunches or classes with me! <3
current mood:  indescribable
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Monday, August 22nd, 2005
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12:05 pm - i'm baaaaaaaaaaaacccccck
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i have arrived home from band camp
feet hurt like none other
back is aching...still...(karen gives a vicious massage but alas....twas not enough)
but i'm still alive
oh and i've got stories....;-)
school in two days:-(
pray that i may live through the hell that is junior year.
current mood: busy
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Saturday, August 13th, 2005
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4:19 pm - baand cammp.......*dies*
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pop up adds suck
arriving at school tomorrow morning at 7 to be sent off to the band camp of doom! >.<
i shall miss you all
and i know i shall be missed too! *hugs*
date of return: saturday, august 20
time: sometime at night
adios
current mood: blah
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Thursday, August 11th, 2005
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9:49 pm - ^_^
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it rained today (kinda sorta...)
that made me happy ^-^
...
is it possible that the dirt stains on my clothes got darker after i put shout on them and put them through the wash?!
what the heck....
current mood: blah
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Saturday, August 6th, 2005
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2:49 pm - gone like a dream....
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hopefully the youth haven ppl will visit today and we'll get together and have a fun time :) so that i wouldn't have missed camping with the family for nothing *sigh*
next week are pre-camp practices....
the week after is band camp.....
the week after that school starts......
summer has come and gone....
still some time left to hang out/chill/have a good time and make fun memories......
if we haven't hung out yet then you need to call......and ASAP.....or else i may plan to take a practice ACT on the day that we may be hanging out....and that would be sad :(
current mood: lonely
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Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
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10:05 pm - crayons!!
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wow....so i just took out my box of crayons for the first time in how many years?? lol.....ahhh.....*sigh* gotta love that waxy smell *makes a face*
this is all thanks to mimili! XP
haha any requests?
(the pictures will probably be crappy and childish lol)
current mood:  amused
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Monday, August 1st, 2005
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8:24 pm - fun fun fun! XD
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youth haven=lots of fun (and drama...but we won't get into that lol)
archery on the first day was definitely one the highlights of my week! on the other hand getting mistaken for being a 12 year-old by 12 year-old boys was not
midnight worship sessions were simply amazing. kids were awesome fun. walking to the chapel for the worship sessions was equally amazing....ahh the stars....i could have stared at them forever haha.
shylen (sp?) had the freakiest yet coolest eyes i have ever seen. terrence is possibly the cutest eight year-old i have ever seen.
yay for staying out at the fort for like 20 minutes and getting eaten alive by mosquitoes and not getting any more bites for the rest of the week.
zip line was pretty fun and i was the only one smart enough to acquire a massive rope burn
swimming every day made me happy though getting water in my nose and ears every time.....not so much
trying to bond with the kids was not an easy task and i was definitely stretched good experience. awesome life lessons. that was a week i won't be forgetting soon.
after chinese school at lily's house yesterday i just decided to sleep over.
twas fun indeed *nods* we took random quizzes on quizilla and that was amusing. then we made sushi! haha and then watched Moulin Rouge (sp?) and Karen and Larry visited! interesting late night girly talks............they will never resurface again!
lots of fun indeed
current mood:  tired
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Sunday, July 24th, 2005
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6:19 pm
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well i'm off to youth haven tomorrow and i'll be back saturday.......
kinda nervous about working with them kids....ehh...i'll live....
what's going on in my life? well nothing really except practice ACTs and SATs and AP chem hmwk. that's about it. nothing exciting so far. hehe just in case anyone was wondering.
current mood: tired
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Monday, July 18th, 2005
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2:00 pm - yay manga!!
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hahaha i just finished the entire hana kimi series!!! XD yay!!!! this site rocks!!! http://manga.roel.no-ip.info haha it's got all the scans!!! (but i think they missed a coupla pages in some volumes because it got kinda choppy.....but that's ok! XD
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Saturday, July 16th, 2005
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3:09 pm - >:o
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confused
annoyed
last night was fun though
parents are in toronto
aunt is not home
listening to the anastasia soundtrack
woke up to thunder this morning all alone in the house (kinda creepy)
just for the record i do not need anyone
because no one is ever there when i really need someone to talk to
you all say, "oh you can talk to me!" or "i'll listen to you" but the truth is you're just not that close to me
yea that's probably my fault too though
pushing everyone away and shutting myself off when i feel that there's even a chance that someone can get close
it's not like i know i'm doing it.....until much later
yea
whatever
how nice would it be if i had a big bro
disappointments disappointments
whatever
life goes on
i am frickin bored out of my mind
chem is making me mad
let's face facts:
i can't drive
i can't go anywhere
no one would actually visit cause even though i'm closer to novi i'm still pretty out of the way
i hardly talk to my friends at school in the summer
my people skills pretty much suck
and i don't think people like being around me when i'm like this
so what.....they like being around a happy me even if that happy is fake
ok that should be enough..........
yea what a bright and happy post huh?
current mood: depressed
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Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
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10:19 pm - boredom strikes yet again.....stolen from beka!!! XD
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ewww my forehead is all peeling from the sunburn from the canoe trip.....ack i just want it to go away and fast >_<
Basics:
Name: Xi Xi
Birthday: March 31, 1989
Zodiac Sign: Aries (western) and snake (chinese)
Hair Color: black...(ish)
Body Mods: huh? is this piercings and such?? erm....no tattoos.....one piercing on each ear
Relationship(s): God (yes that's it)
Language(s): english, mandarin, (and i understand two other dialects of chinese)
Favorites:
Color: navy and cerulean blue, white, black, silver
Food: i'm not picky....anything but seafood really haha
Band: N/A
Song: N/A
Memory: got plenty of nice memories with yg :)
People: i prefer not to publically announce them haha
Clothing Item: my VBS shirt because i made it frickin' awesome lol XD
Ice Cream: can't choose....they're all soo yummy!!! (well most ice creams are....)
Sport to watch: don't really watch sports.....(although i really enjoyed watching figure skating and gymnastics when i was little....i kinda wanna see some martial arts or archery though.....hahaha)
Sport to play: erm.........badminton??
Scent: nature-ish smells (fresh air (which is so rare now....), the ocean, certain pine tree smells...)
Way to relax: reading outside on the swingy chair thingy on a sunny day with a slight breeze and something yummy to eat
Movie you own: lion king!!!!!! (no competition there! lol)
Movie you don't already own: er...dunno
Male movie star: N/A
Female movie star: N/A
Book genre: fiction and graphic novels hehe
Clothing store: kohls, target, jcpenney
Non-clothing store: i guess target could go here too....border's!! and barnes and nobles!!! erm.....mirai....my fancy (when it still existed *tear*) and....i'm sure wizzy wigs would also make the list only i've never been there lol
Cartoon character: don't really have one.....perhaps rurouni kenshin...hmm...
CD you own: i love'em all!! <3
CD you don't already own: like i'm really supposed to know.....-_-
Numbers: 4
How many people you’ve kissed: ewww......(haha i'm such a little girl)
How many people you’ve been in love with: the one and only God! <3
How many siblings you have: one flippin' pain-in-the-but three year-old bro :P
How many pets you have: sadly, none T__T
How many times you have been out of the country: quite a lot considering canada is like just a coupla hours drive away lol
How many kids you think you will have: NONE
How many colleges you applied to: none yet cause i'm a youngin'
How many schools you have attended thus far: 1 preschool, 3 different elementaries, 1 middle, and 1 high
How many summer camps you have gone to: aside from band camp? none *sadness*
Have you ever:
Skipped school: nope haha i'm a goody two shoes
Broken someone's heart: haha riggggghtttttt.......lol
Been in-love: not any human
Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: well of course...i am a normal (somewhat) teenage girl lol
Been skydiving: ahh i wish!!
Broken a bone: nah
Done something embarrassing: of course >_<
Lied: yes.....i'm only human
Cried In School: yea yea i'm a sad pathetic weakling.....
Fallen For Your Best Friend?: kinda.......sorta....ok not really.....
Kissed A Friend?: i don't kiss
In Lust?: i'm only human....
Been Dumped?: yea right hahahaha
Been Used?: probably more than i know
Dumped Someone?: nooooo
Been Cheated On?: that implies being in a relationship in the first place so hahahaha yea right
Cheated on someone?: see above
Been Kissed?: haha no
Had something You Regretted?: i think so....too many to pinpoint them anymore though
Been in a car accident: nah but it'll be soon lol
Tripped in front of a large group of people: haha yea my whole english class while doing a huge presentation (those darn cables...)
Preference:
Coke or Pepsi: coke
Sprite or 7UP: sprite
Girls or Guys: guys
Blondes or Brunettes: it don't matter
Tall or Short: this doesn't matter either cause most everyone's taller than me hehehe
Pants or Shorts: pants
Night or Day: nigghhhht buahaha
Kiss or hug: *shudder*
Opposite sex:
What do you notice first: character
What characteristic is most important: honosty
Serious or funny: a lil of both
Worst Question To Ask: no idea
All is fair in love and war?: never was and never will be
Last Time You:
Showered: last night (showers every night for me thank you very much)
Stepped outside: this afternoon
Told someone you loved them: never in my entire life
Hugged someone: karen yiu upon entering her house for her grad party
Ate dinner with your family: tonight (ack that reminds me of west side story....)
Who:
Makes You Laugh: lotta ppl
Makes You Smile: yg friends
Makes you cry: parentals
Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What: no one really cause i never talk to anyone *scowls*
Can you call anytime, even in the middle of the night: no one
Has A Crush On You: probably no one
Do You Have A Crush On: i'd rather not announce
Do you trust the most: God
Do you have the most respect for: probably Grace A-yi
Is your best friend: alice, allison, and then some ppl from church
Places:
Last place you kissed someone (location): i. don't. kiss.
Last place you vacationed with your family: erm.....toronto, canada, probably?
Last place you took a road trip to: never did
Place you want to honeymoon: not getting married :P
Place you want to live: lotsa places! *grin*
Place you grew up: china for almost three years, then connecticut, then novi, then farmington hills
Favorite place to relax: outside on the swing or in my room
Do you ever:
Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: haha no
Kiss: wow....for the last frickin' time...NO
Hug: occassionally
Talk to strangers: haha all the time :P (it depends)
Honk the car horn just for fun: not really...
First:
Kiss: not gonna happen
Crush: i'd really rather not say
Slow Dance: urgh never there's not point it's just a prolonged hug with some rocking
Boyfriend/girlfriend: like i have time to think about a boyfriend hahaha
Best Friend: this girl (Huston Huckly or something like that lol) in first grade
Car: don't have a car
The Last Person:
You Touched?: erm my bro?? (to get him to stop being so annoying!!)
Hugged?: karen yiu
Kissed?: I. DON'T. KISS
Instant Messaged?: tina
You Yelled At?: probably my mom
You Thought About?: not saying :P
Messaged You?: stuart
Who Broke Your Heart?: never!!! buahahaha
Who Told You They Loved You?: probably me mum
Have You/Do You/Are You:
Stolen Anything?: nope
Smoke?: ew no
Drink?: ewww smells so bad....no
Sex?: ahhhhhhhhh!!!! no frickin' way
Compulsive?: not really....
Obsessive compulsive?: noo don't think so...
Panic?: occasionally
Depressed?: all the time (haha not really)
Considered a flirt?: i really hope not
You're Currently:
Doing: this survey and talking to stu and tina
Downloading: nothin
Uploading?: see above
Listening To: me typing
Watching: the computer screen?
well.......that was way too long.......props to anyone who reads it all lol (as daniel would probably say)
current mood: tired
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Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
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11:44 am - is it too much to ask?!?!
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*beginning of complaint*
waited too long and now the offer is gone
dumb mother
whatever i guess i don't need any music while traveling.......
going from $299 to $189 is pretty good. haha yea right mom there's no frickin way it's gonna get any lower
whatever
life is full of disappointments
i should be used to them by now
and i should know very well by now that we never always get what we want
*end of complaint*
(ahaha right like anyone really cares about this right?)
current mood:  annoyed
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