My Senseless Rants

rawr

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 21:54:25 GMT

xi xi is now legal.....O_o

randomness

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 01:48:36 GMT

haha currently searching for 占有 (zhan you) by 飞轮海 (Fahrenheit)
anyone heard of fahrenheit? you all should they're pretty nifty :D they have happyful songs like 超喜欢你 (chao xi huan ni) which translates into "i really like you" hahaha XD tis highly recommended by me! *nod* hehehe

ooh and if anyone happens to know where the song 占有 is from (like what album/OST aka sountrack) that would be awesome :)

MUSIC <3!!!

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 03:41:26 GMT

w-inds is coming out with a new album.....gackt is coming out with a new single....and i want them allllllllll >< ahhhhh lol (see facebook for pretty pictures! XD)

soundtrack of my life

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 05:37:28 GMT

(stolen from tina! XD)
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie

Opening Credits:
Worthy, You Are Worthy - Chris Tomlin

Waking Up:
Holy One Alone - Mark White Band

First Day At School:
Gazelle City - the pillows

Falling In Love:
Startin' - 浜崎あゆみ(ayumi hamasaki)

Fight Song:
Stalker - the pillows

Breaking Up:
No. 3 In A Flat Major - Various Artists (some romantic piano song...)

Formal:
HAPPY ENDING (classical) - 浜崎あゆみ(ayumi hamasaki)

Life's Okay:
Dreams - Alysha (from Pokémon The Movie 2000 The Power Of One)

Mental Breakdown:
Loreta And Desireé's Bouquet - Part 1 - George Winston

Driving:
The Encounter - 久石譲 (from the original Princess Mononoke Soundtrack)

Flashback:
BYE MY LOVE～TinyVoice, Production REMIX～ - FLAME

Getting Back Together:
Color Me - w-inds. (haha how appropriate XD)

Wedding:
Music of the Night - PotO (uhhhh...)

Birth of a Child:
Idyll's End - Hans Zimmer (original score from the Last Samurai Soundtrack)

Final Battle:
Little Busters - the pillows

Death Scene:
III. Scherzo. Molto Vivace - Antonín Dvořák (from Symphony No. 9 in E minor: From the New World)

Funeral Song:
shadow's masquerade - Sagisu Shiro (BLEACH Original Soundtrack 2) ooh how fitting...

End Credits:
Fantasmic - Nightwish

haha it's funny how some things fit perfectly and others not at all

i return with surveys!!!!

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 05:26:54 GMT

i am back on lj because i realize that once in college, this will be the only way i can keep in touch with some of my friends

random stuff!

*~Deep Questions That Make You Think~Mostly Original~81 Questions*
Random/Basic
Name:	Xi Guo
Nickname:	Xi Xi
Best memory:	going on the alaskan cruise with my family the summer between my fifth and sixth grade
Worst memory:	mother calling the cops on me...
Best dream:	just hanging out with my friends in church with random hugging-ness (twas a warm fuzzy feeling =) )
Worst nightmare:	mother/monsters/other dark things trying to kill me
Weaknesses:	short tempered, stubborn, a bit antisocial/not really good with or around people, procrastinator,
Strengths:	loyal, honest, intelligent (somewhat), creative, leader, good listener/observer, faily calm
Anyone have the same birthday as you?:	yes! (Heather Liu! XD)
Would you...
die for a friend?:	yes
die for your crush/bf/gf?:	probably not
die for your family?:	yes
ever kill yourself?:	now: no, before: yes
Kill someone else?:	no
If you had to choose- save your cat or save your enemy?:	enemy
rather freeze or burn to death?:	burn
admit you love someone?:	probably not
break the law or lie to save a friend?:	break human law yes. God's law no. lie no.
Have you ever...
cut yourself?:	sorta...
been in love?:	don't think so
thought about suicide?:	yup
hated someone so much you thought you would really kill them?:	no
starved yourself?:	no
forced yourself to cry?:	probably
forced yourself to throw up?:	no
betrayed a friend?:	no
hurt someone else so you would feel better about yourself?:	no
Which is worse?
your friend dying or your parent dying:	parent
losing all your old memories or never being able to make new ones:	never being able to make new ones
being rejected by someone you love or having your feelings returned only...:	feelings returned only to be dumped
to be dumped a month later:
being raped or willingly having sex and later regretting it:	raped
having no emotions or only being happy once every couple of months:	only being happy once every couple of months
losing all your friends on earth or never having found God:	never having found God
being dumped or dumping someone:	dumping someone
falling in love with an anime character or falling in love with a celebrity:	anime character
a friend moving away or losing touch with a friend who lives right near you:	losing touch w/ friend right near you
Dreams
What is your dream in life?:	myterious, dark, often nightmare-filled. (good dreams are few and far betwee) although lately there's been quite a bit of calc
Do you have insomnia?:	majorly
Do you often wake up in the middle of the night after a bad dream?:	sometimes
Do you get deja vu?:	all the time
Did you ever have a dream that came true?:	quite a few times
What about a nightmare?:	not really...
Did you ever have a realistic dream that truly scared you?:	yup
Do you daydream?:	yup
Have you ever dreamed you were falling?:	not really
Fears
Greatest fears:	God
What are you not afraid of at all?:	death
Name a weird phobia you have.:	throwing up
Has your fear ever come true?:	my fear IS true
Is your fear a common fear?:	dunno
Any particular reason for the fear?:	well He is kinda all powerful...
Does it ever control your life?:	well yea He should... =P
Have you had nightmares about the fear?:	no
Are you more afraid of rejection or failure?:	rejection
The Past
Most missed memory:	childhood and carefree times when i got along with my family
How have your feelings changed throughout your life?:	many times
First memory:	being potty-trained by my grandparents when i was still in China ( i was like one or almost two)
Happiest childhood memory:	picking strawberries (and eating them at the same time) with my mother and grandmother in Connecticut
Saddest childhood memory:	Uncle Monroe dying
What was your first word?:	mama
First friend?:	some random neighbor kid in Connecticut
First crush?:	some guy on my bus in first grade
First love?:	yet to occur
What would you do if...
your best friend died because of you?:	i'd do all i could for his/her family
your true love moved out of the country?:	i would never have a "true love"
your friend gave you the choice of cheating on the really tough math final?:	i wouldn't cheat
a friend offered you drugs or alcohol?:	i'd refuse
a friend of the same gender told you they were gay and asked you out?:	i'd still be her friend but refuse
your bf/gf asked you to have sex with them?:	i'd refuse
you were sexually abused?:	probably repress the memory somehow or avoid people in general/not let anyone touch me ever again
you were betrayed by someone you trusted and cared about?:	i would never put so much trust in someone for that to happen
you found out your friend wanted to die?:	i'd do my best to convince him/her otherwise
Final Thoughts
Are you saved?:	yes
Do you believe in God?:	yes
Why or why not?:	because He's the truth and the way and the life
Are you depressed or sad all the time?:	kinda not really anymore
What are you hoping for in the future?:	adventure
What makes you happy?:	music
What makes you sad?:	lots of things
Do you believe in the Bible?:	yes
Why or why not?:	because it's the truth
Take this survey \| Find more surveys Bzoink - The Original Survey Site

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 02:32:12 GMT

stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid

angry

currently pulling a D in honors precalc

and its almost time for report cards

PSAT over

ACT coming up

the whole spirit of homecoming ticked me off last week

and i still am

string of curses flying across my mind

last home game this friday against north. we're the away team. wtf

competition saturday

last competition next saturday

life

can't escape it

this is stupid

no point in trying to talk anymore

i just wanna cry

like every frickin minute of the day

this is stupid

i hate emotions

and school

and pressures

and competition

and wits

and scores

and secrets

and things i musn't talk about

and high school couples

and having to pretend all the time

and trying to be indifferent

and failing miserably at every frickin thing i try to do

and physical problems that i can't identify because i don't even know if they're physical or psycological

and pain

i hate them all

hate hate hate hate hate

stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid

i fail

and i let everyone down

and i'm incredibly self-absorbed

i just

fail

all the time

and it doesn't even matter anymore

i'm just

weary....

the light mocks me

as does the warmth

that's fine

i don't mind the darkness

nor the loneliness

sometimes it's the best way to go

angry

at everything

stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid

how things are indeed

why must i be so pessimistic?

i think i have a mental illness

even my own frickin mother thinks it

i just wanna sleep and never wake up again

not feel anything of this world again

oh the stupidity of it all

i can't even begin to express

am at a loss for words

or feelings

blackness

and coldness

all the time

hate hate hate hate hate

stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid

no one cares

what does it matter

i don't think i'm updating anymore

ever again

have a nice life

BTW if anyone shows this entry to any of my parents i will personally make sure that you die a horribly long, painful and bloody death.

good thing or bad thing?

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 23:46:24 GMT

physics second hour second semester is full i probably won't be able to take physics this year :(

*sadness*

my mommy just made bubble tea :)

*happiness*

sigh

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 01:50:39 GMT

alright well i'm going to switch out of international issues and comm. tech. and go into accelerated physics because i really wanna takea AP next year. yea.....so pray that i won't die or have some sort of mental breakdown.

did i mention that i left my retainer at band camp? cause i did. and it kinda sucks.

all randomness aside, my mother forced me to write a schedual for every day of the week. and lemme tell ya it is filled with hmwk, SAT/ACT test preps, and Chinese. *roar* i'm not looking forward toward junior year at all.

scchooooolllll gag

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 01:29:47 GMT

school tomorrow

just finishing chem XD

getting up at 8 AM seems waay too early

lol getting up at 6 every day from thursday on is going to thoroughly suck

summer=amazing

already looking forward to next year :)

my schedual:
sem 1=
1. honors precalc -shaw
2. web design -valice
3. principles of engineering -finn
4. spanish 3 -lopez (B lunch)
5. AP chem -convery (A lunch)
6. AP chem -convery
7. international issues -sievert

sem 2=
1. spanish 3 -cunnigham
2. communications technology -zaleski
3. american lit & lang-themes -campbell
4. symphony orchestra -banks (A lunch)
5. honors precalc -shaw (C lunch)
6. AP chem -convery
7. american lit minority voices -johnson

lemme know if you have any lunches or classes with me! <3

i'm baaaaaaaaaaaacccccck

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 16:05:59 GMT

i have arrived home from band camp

feet hurt like none other

back is aching...still...(karen gives a vicious massage but alas....twas not enough)

but i'm still alive

oh and i've got stories....;-)

school in two days:-(

pray that i may live through the hell that is junior year.

baand cammp.......dies

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 20:19:42 GMT

pop up adds suck

arriving at school tomorrow morning at 7 to be sent off to the band camp of doom! >.<

i shall miss you all

and i know i shall be missed too! *hugs*

date of return: saturday, august 20

time: sometime at night

adios

^_^

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 01:51:30 GMT

it rained today (kinda sorta...)

that made me happy ^-^

...

is it possible that the dirt stains on my clothes got darker after i put shout on them and put them through the wash?!

what the heck....

gone like a dream....

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 18:49:34 GMT

hopefully the youth haven ppl will visit today and we'll get together and have a fun time :) so that i wouldn't have missed camping with the family for nothing *sigh*

next week are pre-camp practices....

the week after is band camp.....

the week after that school starts......

summer has come and gone....

still some time left to hang out/chill/have a good time and make fun memories......

if we haven't hung out yet then you need to call......and ASAP.....or else i may plan to take a practice ACT on the day that we may be hanging out....and that would be sad :(

crayons!!

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 02:08:25 GMT

wow....so i just took out my box of crayons for the first time in how many years?? lol.....ahhh.....*sigh* gotta love that waxy smell *makes a face*

this is all thanks to mimili! XP

haha any requests?

(the pictures will probably be crappy and childish lol)

fun fun fun! XD

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 00:24:33 GMT

youth haven=lots of fun (and drama...but we won't get into that lol)

archery on the first day was definitely one the highlights of my week! on the other hand getting mistaken for being a 12 year-old by 12 year-old boys was not
midnight worship sessions were simply amazing. kids were awesome fun. walking to the chapel for the worship sessions was equally amazing....ahh the stars....i could have stared at them forever haha.
shylen (sp?) had the freakiest yet coolest eyes i have ever seen. terrence is possibly the cutest eight year-old i have ever seen.
yay for staying out at the fort for like 20 minutes and getting eaten alive by mosquitoes and not getting any more bites for the rest of the week.
zip line was pretty fun and i was the only one smart enough to acquire a massive rope burn
swimming every day made me happy though getting water in my nose and ears every time.....not so much
trying to bond with the kids was not an easy task and i was definitely stretched good experience. awesome life lessons. that was a week i won't be forgetting soon.

after chinese school at lily's house yesterday i just decided to sleep over.
twas fun indeed *nods* we took random quizzes on quizilla and that was amusing. then we made sushi! haha and then watched Moulin Rouge (sp?) and Karen and Larry visited! interesting late night girly talks............they will never resurface again!

lots of fun indeed

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 22:21:33 GMT

well i'm off to youth haven tomorrow and i'll be back saturday.......

kinda nervous about working with them kids....ehh...i'll live....

what's going on in my life? well nothing really except practice ACTs and SATs and AP chem hmwk. that's about it. nothing exciting so far. hehe just in case anyone was wondering.

yay manga!!

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 18:01:48 GMT

hahaha i just finished the entire hana kimi series!!! XD yay!!!! this site rocks!!! http://manga.roel.no-ip.info haha it's got all the scans!!! (but i think they missed a coupla pages in some volumes because it got kinda choppy.....but that's ok! XD

>:o

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 19:10:07 GMT

confused

annoyed

last night was fun though

parents are in toronto

aunt is not home

listening to the anastasia soundtrack

woke up to thunder this morning all alone in the house (kinda creepy)

just for the record i do not need anyone

because no one is ever there when i really need someone to talk to

you all say, "oh you can talk to me!" or "i'll listen to you" but the truth is you're just not that close to me

yea that's probably my fault too though

pushing everyone away and shutting myself off when i feel that there's even a chance that someone can get close

it's not like i know i'm doing it.....until much later

yea

whatever

how nice would it be if i had a big bro

disappointments disappointments

whatever

life goes on

i am frickin bored out of my mind

chem is making me mad

let's face facts:

i can't drive

i can't go anywhere

no one would actually visit cause even though i'm closer to novi i'm still pretty out of the way

i hardly talk to my friends at school in the summer

my people skills pretty much suck

and i don't think people like being around me when i'm like this

so what.....they like being around a happy me even if that happy is fake

ok that should be enough..........

yea what a bright and happy post huh?

boredom strikes yet again.....stolen from beka!!! XD

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 03:07:45 GMT

ewww my forehead is all peeling from the sunburn from the canoe trip.....ack i just want it to go away and fast >_<

Basics:
Name: Xi Xi
Birthday: March 31, 1989
Zodiac Sign: Aries (western) and snake (chinese)
Hair Color: black...(ish)
Body Mods: huh? is this piercings and such?? erm....no tattoos.....one piercing on each ear
Relationship(s): God (yes that's it)
Language(s): english, mandarin, (and i understand two other dialects of chinese)

Favorites:
Color: navy and cerulean blue, white, black, silver
Food: i'm not picky....anything but seafood really haha
Band: N/A
Song: N/A
Memory: got plenty of nice memories with yg :)
People: i prefer not to publically announce them haha
Clothing Item: my VBS shirt because i made it frickin' awesome lol XD
Ice Cream: can't choose....they're all soo yummy!!! (well most ice creams are....)
Sport to watch: don't really watch sports.....(although i really enjoyed watching figure skating and gymnastics when i was little....i kinda wanna see some martial arts or archery though.....hahaha)
Sport to play: erm.........badminton??
Scent: nature-ish smells (fresh air (which is so rare now....), the ocean, certain pine tree smells...)
Way to relax: reading outside on the swingy chair thingy on a sunny day with a slight breeze and something yummy to eat
Movie you own: lion king!!!!!! (no competition there! lol)
Movie you don't already own: er...dunno
Male movie star: N/A
Female movie star: N/A
Book genre: fiction and graphic novels hehe
Clothing store: kohls, target, jcpenney
Non-clothing store: i guess target could go here too....border's!! and barnes and nobles!!! erm.....mirai....my fancy (when it still existed *tear*) and....i'm sure wizzy wigs would also make the list only i've never been there lol
Cartoon character: don't really have one.....perhaps rurouni kenshin...hmm...
CD you own: i love'em all!! <3
CD you don't already own: like i'm really supposed to know.....-_-
Numbers: 4
How many people you’ve kissed: ewww......(haha i'm such a little girl)
How many people you’ve been in love with: the one and only God! <3
How many siblings you have: one flippin' pain-in-the-but three year-old bro :P
How many pets you have: sadly, none T__T
How many times you have been out of the country: quite a lot considering canada is like just a coupla hours drive away lol
How many kids you think you will have: NONE
How many colleges you applied to: none yet cause i'm a youngin'
How many schools you have attended thus far: 1 preschool, 3 different elementaries, 1 middle, and 1 high
How many summer camps you have gone to: aside from band camp? none *sadness*

Have you ever:
Skipped school: nope haha i'm a goody two shoes
Broken someone's heart: haha riggggghtttttt.......lol
Been in-love: not any human
Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: well of course...i am a normal (somewhat) teenage girl lol
Been skydiving: ahh i wish!!
Broken a bone: nah
Done something embarrassing: of course >_<
Lied: yes.....i'm only human
Cried In School: yea yea i'm a sad pathetic weakling.....
Fallen For Your Best Friend?: kinda.......sorta....ok not really.....
Kissed A Friend?: i don't kiss
In Lust?: i'm only human....
Been Dumped?: yea right hahahaha
Been Used?: probably more than i know
Dumped Someone?: nooooo
Been Cheated On?: that implies being in a relationship in the first place so hahahaha yea right
Cheated on someone?: see above
Been Kissed?: haha no
Had something You Regretted?: i think so....too many to pinpoint them anymore though
Been in a car accident: nah but it'll be soon lol
Tripped in front of a large group of people: haha yea my whole english class while doing a huge presentation (those darn cables...)

Preference:
Coke or Pepsi: coke
Sprite or 7UP: sprite
Girls or Guys: guys
Blondes or Brunettes: it don't matter
Tall or Short: this doesn't matter either cause most everyone's taller than me hehehe
Pants or Shorts: pants
Night or Day: nigghhhht buahaha
Kiss or hug: *shudder*

Opposite sex:
What do you notice first: character
What characteristic is most important: honosty
Serious or funny: a lil of both
Worst Question To Ask: no idea
All is fair in love and war?: never was and never will be

Last Time You:
Showered: last night (showers every night for me thank you very much)
Stepped outside: this afternoon
Told someone you loved them: never in my entire life
Hugged someone: karen yiu upon entering her house for her grad party
Ate dinner with your family: tonight (ack that reminds me of west side story....)

Who:
Makes You Laugh: lotta ppl
Makes You Smile: yg friends
Makes you cry: parentals
Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What: no one really cause i never talk to anyone *scowls*
Can you call anytime, even in the middle of the night: no one
Has A Crush On You: probably no one
Do You Have A Crush On: i'd rather not announce
Do you trust the most: God
Do you have the most respect for: probably Grace A-yi
Is your best friend: alice, allison, and then some ppl from church

Places:
Last place you kissed someone (location): i. don't. kiss.
Last place you vacationed with your family: erm.....toronto, canada, probably?
Last place you took a road trip to: never did
Place you want to honeymoon: not getting married :P
Place you want to live: lotsa places! *grin*
Place you grew up: china for almost three years, then connecticut, then novi, then farmington hills
Favorite place to relax: outside on the swing or in my room

Do you ever:
Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: haha no
Kiss: wow....for the last frickin' time...NO
Hug: occassionally
Talk to strangers: haha all the time :P (it depends)
Honk the car horn just for fun: not really...

First:
Kiss: not gonna happen
Crush: i'd really rather not say
Slow Dance: urgh never there's not point it's just a prolonged hug with some rocking
Boyfriend/girlfriend: like i have time to think about a boyfriend hahaha
Best Friend: this girl (Huston Huckly or something like that lol) in first grade
Car: don't have a car

The Last Person:
You Touched?: erm my bro?? (to get him to stop being so annoying!!)
Hugged?: karen yiu
Kissed?: I. DON'T. KISS
Instant Messaged?: tina
You Yelled At?: probably my mom
You Thought About?: not saying :P
Messaged You?: stuart
Who Broke Your Heart?: never!!! buahahaha
Who Told You They Loved You?: probably me mum

Have You/Do You/Are You:
Stolen Anything?: nope
Smoke?: ew no
Drink?: ewww smells so bad....no
Sex?: ahhhhhhhhh!!!! no frickin' way
Compulsive?: not really....
Obsessive compulsive?: noo don't think so...
Panic?: occasionally
Depressed?: all the time (haha not really)
Considered a flirt?: i really hope not

You're Currently:
Doing: this survey and talking to stu and tina
Downloading: nothin
Uploading?: see above
Listening To: me typing
Watching: the computer screen?

well.......that was way too long.......props to anyone who reads it all lol (as daniel would probably say)

is it too much to ask?!?!

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 15:44:28 GMT

*beginning of complaint*

waited too long and now the offer is gone

dumb mother

whatever i guess i don't need any music while traveling.......

going from $299 to $189 is pretty good. haha yea right mom there's no frickin way it's gonna get any lower

whatever

life is full of disappointments

i should be used to them by now

and i should know very well by now that we never always get what we want

*end of complaint*

(ahaha right like anyone really cares about this right?)

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 19:40:28 GMT

not doing the founder's day parade this year ya'll

just thought you'd wanna know :P

canoe trip today, karen's grad party tomorrow! =D

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 04:50:05 GMT

canoeing= fun =D

ended like four hours early lol

tipped pg and krist over....haha twas funny until we thought they lost their checkbook with their lisences O_o but then it was all good when they found it in the boat again :)

ow

i hurt

quite a bit

rear end (ack sitting on a metal panel for how many hours??)......and sholders....and i feel bad because i didn't even do that much...ahh soo weak T___T oh well, what doesn't kill you will make you stronger right? haha well i'm off because i'm feeling a bit light-headed just look at the screen.....

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 02:50:30 GMT

today i have accomplished:
>chapter ten of chem
>an SAT practice test
>scoring the test x_x (oh deathness.....)
>not smacking my bro for acting like a spoiled brat
>not going crazy

i think this is reason to smile :)

lotsa lotsa stuff in two days (well at least for me)

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 00:53:23 GMT

fourth of july party yesterday

haha played a shady version (winky's version) of spoons lol

learned how to use the soundboard at yg and i suppose now i'm the sound person (even dreamed about it....hahaha it was a lot of info to take in.)
btw this may take a while for me to get a hold of so please bear with me worship team.

Winky's grad party today

played badminton and got my socks all grass-stained >_<

haha awesome food and of course i stuffed myself XD

talking pooh's rock lol =D

didn't talk all that much thought and kinda felt out of place :-/ oh wells....

ate way too much and now i'm sleepy lol

bro's sick and throwing up all over the place :( i feel so bad for him.....

*edit* stolen from amy!!! cause i'm bored hehe....

cause i'm bored haha:

1.What Time is it now? it says 21:44 right here....(that's 9:44 for those whoe don't understand this lol)

2.Single or taken? SINGLE XD and living it up (kinda sorta eh haha) oh yes and it's gonna STAY this way

3.What does your name mean? haha my chinese one has the character for grass on top and the character for west on the bottem and i was named that because my grandpa knew i was gonna grow (hence the grass? haha) up in the US (hence the west! XD) so it was like, "grass growing up in the west" ?? haha yea it made sense in my head

4.Who picked out your name? my late grandpa

5.Whats your nickname? Xi Xi (cause Xi is my official name XD haha how many of you knew that?)

6.What color are your eyes? dark brown (of course haha asian)

7.Do you have an innie or an outie? belly botton???? innie...........

8.What size are your shoes? haha like 4 to 6

9.How tall (or short) are you? 4'11 1/2''!!!!! buahaha and proud of it!! XD

10.Honestly what do you like about yourself? er......my.......ummm...........ability.......to erm.......i dunno.......origami??? ack.......

11.What do you always get complimented on? i have problems remembering compliments because they're quite rare.........hmmmm.........so i dunno

12.worst quality? my attitude >_< (probably)

13.What are the last four digits of your phone Number? stalker........

14.Do you think you're cute? at times..........*wonders who comes up with these questions*

15.Hair color? black!!! although under a light it can sometimes appear brownish or reddish or even bluish......haha strange i know..... XD

16.Do you wear contacts? nope (have glasses though)

17.Living Arrangements? er....with parents and bro?

18.Favorite drink? water!!!

19.Favorite alcoholic drink? ewwww.........can't stand the smell.........

20.Favorite Month? don't have one....either december or march

21.Favorite Food? have none (i'm not too picky......just as long as it's NOT seafood!! ackk.....)

22.Favorite Board Game? don't play them too much........probably clue or monopoly

23.Web Site? http://manga.roel.no-ip.info so far because it has a crazy amount of manga scans!!! XD

24.Favorite Clothing Brand? errrrrmmmmmm..........aeropostle?? (for shirts) and l.e.i. for pants.....

25.Favorite day of the Year? .........too specific for me..... -_-;;

26.Favorite color? navy and cerulean blue..........silver.......black.....white......hahaha yay for contradicitons

27.Favorite Animal? haven't thought about that for a loooongggggg time.........still the dolphin i suppose? (though i have a thing for big cats now )

28.Do you have more girl or boy friends? girls because i get shy around guys cause i'm a baby like that

29.Who's your best friend? have a couple......like two from church and two from school.........

30.Are your parents together? yup yup (though i won't say anymore.......)

31.How often do you get together with the family? hahaha that's a good one.....

32.Do you see your parents or your friends more? probably parents.......which is kinda sad and pathetic because it makes me feel like i'm stuck in a cage

33.Anything special about your parents? probably

34.Siblings and their ages? bro Matthew and he's 3

35.You think you are a flirt? eww i desperately hope not

36.Are you slutty? if i ever am you must slap me very hard

37.Are you Mean? hahaha probably all the time

38.You like someone? yea duh.....but it's not like crushes matter

39.You can keep secrets? yes yes of course haha

40.You dance in front of the mirror? i. do. not. dance.

41.You sing in the shower? nooo...........

42.You like Britney Spears? *shudder*

45.Ever hurt anyone? this is life. hurt and get hurt duh.

46.You've been hurt? see above

48.You get your way? sometimes, but it don't really matter

49.You're willing to try new things? most of the time yea

50.You've cheated on a test? *gasp* no never!!! O_o (see the halo?? lol)

51.What are you wearing? jeans. tank top, t-shirt

52.What color are your pants? blue..........

53.What are you listening to? some chinese series my dad is watching......

54.How are you feeling? weird........tired......bemused

55.What are you doing now? typing this duh (who wrote this honostly?!?!) hahaha

56.What are you eating? nothing.......ate too much at winky's grad party.....

57.How's the weather? dark and kinda gross-ish

58.What books are you reading? just finished the DaVinci Code. dunno what i'm gonna read next. but i think i shall read some stories from my children's picture Bible lol.

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Sun, 03 Jul 2005 17:22:53 GMT

this sucks

my relatives are over and so my whole family decide to go out for lunch and then the mall afterwards.

i didn't know about this when i made plans to go ice-skating.

so i decide to keep my original plans to go ice-skating because it wouldn't be cool to cancel at the last minute especially since i organized it.

but then my ride calls and says that she can't make it because of parents. and then another friend backs out because of parents.

but i don't tell them my situation because i'm sure they've got enough to worry about.

and so i'm stuck here all day.

knowing that the rest of my family is at the outlet mall.

and that i could've gone with them and canceled skating but i didn't.

why does everything always go wrong?!

*goes off to cry*